It’s 3.28 am and I have to share this with you. If you look at society, who has always been focused, who has reached the top and contributed significantly to the society? Walt Disney, Steve Jobs, Warner Brothers, Cohen Brothers. Look closely, all of these are men. All of these are guys. Where are the women. There only a few. And especially in the entertainment industry, who has done quality work, who has gotten a big names, other than Oprah and Jk. who else? There is a whole list of top male directors, business tycoons, all men.
I am here on this earth, to make a change. Because I haven’t been living up to my full potential. Girls usually fall astray very easily, yes we are stronger, yet we go settle for less, because guys go 100% after they want. I look up to you guys, I want to contribute significantly and yes I want to make a difference. I want to stand above the society, above the mediocre. I want to set my soul free. I don’t want to follow the normal, conventional way of living. I want to reach high, I want to live up to my full potential.
I can marry, have kids, live a ‘normal’ life, but I am not satisfied with that. I want to dance passionately, I want to run like an athlete, I want to have laser focus. This is truly what I want. I want to make it to the list of the world’s best filmmaker, yes as a girl, my name has to be reached to that list of Walt Disney, Warner Brothers. Because if they can do it, why not me?
I love you so much God damn it, and yes I’ve got feelings too, I also want to have sex, that’s a feeling, but let me tell you something, that my friend I can do anytime and minute with anyone. It is a challenge to do it with someone I truly connect and I can only do that until I fully live up to my full potential. When life comes and the guy knocks on my door, I will embrace it, but until to that point, I embrace this time and go 100% after what is being presented to me right now. An opportunity to be the best that I can, the very best in my field. I have something to offer, something very big and I cannot let it dose off and let it die, because I am occupying myself with a guy, going after my feelings and think like the mass. The conventional way.
This is the secret and everyone who is portraying love and sex on TV, they are getting there money and spend it on luxury while the people who are watching it, is feeling the passion and is spending, consuming, for normal things, is working hard, very hard. I am happy that you can release yourself, but please don’t fall astray. Those top people are damn focused and treat themselves and give themselves the best of the best of life. While other people are sleeping, or going into this mediocre life, I am e-mailing at night to every single distribution company, I am contemplating. I won’t rest until I have it. Yes, it’s easy to have a guy, but I want to portray love, showing but not showing. At this moment, I want to make myself very desirable, want to be a business tycoon and then find my soulmate. Loving one guy, my partner, but we will meet, oh we will definitely meet. But we will meet each other at the top. I want to be the most successful girl out there and no not the conventional way of ‘make-up’ line. But with my production company, with film making. Only people like Steven Spielberg, Christopher Columbus and many other directors, male directors have successfully achieved that position. I want to be the first who makes it to the list as a female. Oh yes, if you guys can do it too, I can do it as well. And I love you guys, you’re focus is amazing. But I’m also in the business, guess what, you’ve got a little bit of competition, me ;)
I love being the best, I love it. And I won’t stop until I get it. Then my soul can be set free. Enough looking at others, checking others, trying to fit in to this society. Enough of that, I have seen a lot, Los Angeles has taught me a lot, it has showed me the reality of being a successful person, creating every day. I am back again and I won’t rest until I have it and I will also enjoy my life completely. I rather be alone, than being sick and miserable together. I embrace my journey, I accept it and I will run with it, this is what I want. I want this. I’ve just turned 26 and I am running, shifting gears, I am coming with a bang, with a big bang. Mark my words, every rejection I will turn it into acceptance, billions of people will watch my films.
I live in America and this is my home, they think the same, have the same mentality, yes think innovative. This is the 21st century, let’s make history. I love love, I will always love you, I will always love you passionately and yes I wanted to go with you and settle down with you, but it wasn’t meant to be. I would create magic in the room, I would make it our best relationship every, but I was meant to fly and make magic happen not only for you but for every single person out there on this Earth.
Everyone who is heartbroken out there, who is living their lives by themselves, ‘alone’, you are not alone. You are meant for great things, go after it, let’s make history. Let’s live this life, let’s work on ourselves and be the best. I’ve got so much fire inside of me, I haven’t lived up to my full potential yet. Let’s do this. It’s Friday, 5th of February 2016. A new day, a new beginning, let’s do this and let’s go after this.